Free Pass.

 

“Hello thoughts!” You said in greeting to your inner voice to whom you haven’t heard in a long time. It had been on hiatus for the period when you had been through a lot of changes and extreme emotions had been involved. You are one to say that you had given in to a lot of guilty pleasure when it was away. Rising above reason and riding on the premise of heat of the moment excuse. You threw caution out of the window because this voice whom followed you on your high horse hasn’t thought to caution you. While it was MIA , no one dared ask you, “Are you ready for everything to fall apart and be held responsible for it?” And surely, you’d always answer No.

“When were you able to afford mistakes?”

“How dare you go through it without knowing the nearest emergency exit?”

“Are you ready to crash and burn?”

All to which your answer will be a resounding ‘No’. These questions came crashing in on you, try as you might to dodge them; they are relentless. You breathe. Slowly, air comes in your nose runs down your trachea then spreads to the rest of your lungs, just like magic the heart pumps blood that would carry the oxygen from that air to the rest of your body before it goes back to your heart and then to your lungs just like so. That is probably the most important thing that is happening to you right now. See, that didn’t even need a single thought or decision on your part. It just happens. Several  things happen in your life that you never would put much thought on but they consistently and independently happen without you ever noticing. That is the beauty of Life. Regrettably, you forget to see past the cloud of worry and miss on highlighting this blessing that you get to experience every day.  Understandably, you are terrified of making a mistake, not wanting to jeopardise relationships and the feelings of people you care about. But breathe again and see that even when things go horribly whether expectedly or unexpectedly, life will go on if you let it. Fear not, swallow that lump in your throat and breathe. No one can tell you what will happen in the future but there can’t be a possibility of one unless you move straight ahead.

Breathe.

It won’t be easy. Soon, you will move away to a big scary city where you are going to be on your own. New characters will be introduced in this next chapter. Don’t forget about the old ones, they will hold you together. But do not be scared to welcome new ones, they will build up the suspense and will most likely take part in the protagonists’ character development. There will be days when you will be scared again. Let be, breathe and keep moving. Live for the life you want and you think you deserve. Be selfish about following your dreams.

And love. Give yourself a chance.

P.S. You are a warrior and everything you will have, will be hard fought and well earned. You are not a free pass girl. You are a champion in your own right.